14th Day of March 2010
My life is but a grain of sand. I am nothing and I rejoice in my nothingness before almighty God. As I reach 40 I wish I could go back and do things differently but know that I am who I am now, because of my past. God's love for us is so amazing. His Mercy is limitless if we only reach for him and call his holy Name; Jesus have mercy on me a poor miserable sinner.
In the early hours 19th January I felt the presence of our Lady. That night I had gone to bed worried sick about a meeting the next day. It was the worst anxiety I can remember having for a very long time. Somehow that night my anxiety reached Heaven and my Holy Mother came to and made her presence felt. I did not see her, I did not touch her and I could not remember anything that my Queen said. All I can tell you is that I woke up with a feeling of peace and calm unwarranted considering my situation in the meeting the next day. Fear left me and calm came back. My soul had just been touched by Mary and I know it was her that came to me. I just know it! Many years ago my dear mother gave me a prayer to Mary, called the Shield of Mary. Somehow I feel this visit is connected to saying that prayer on a regular basis.
I love you Jesus because you saved me
I love you Mary because you are the best Mother in the world
I love you St Joseph because you are the best Daddy in the World
I love you St Michael because I need your protection
Please pray for us. This world and its inhabitants needs all of you more than ever before. Please pray for us.
24th Day of January 2010
Dear Jesus, I remember reading an article nearly a year ago about a business man about my age (40). He was lukewarm in his faith and was being pulled by his wife (who was a practicing Catholic) to come back to God. He was brought up Catholic but like many Catholics had become lazy towards his faith and the salvation of his soul. This business man who lived in North Carolina was on a business trip to New York. Whilst in New York he had some free time, and in his hotel room was sorting through his diary / wallet. He came across a holy card that his dear Wife had given him to protect him some time ago. The Holy Card was of the Divine Mercy and it had the now famous 3 O'clock Divine Mercy Prayer written on it. The card pricked his conscious. He new that he lived in the world and gave too little back to God. In that moment he decided for God and put the holy card in his jacket pocket as a start / reminder to think more often about his faith. Very soon he found himself on a plane in New York about to fly home. The plane took off about 3:26 pm, but within 40 to 50 seconds the plane was in serious trouble as bird strikes to both engines took them out and this massive plane became a powerless glider. The Business man new he was in trouble. Was he ready to meet his maker? The Business man took out the picture of the divine mercy and he said the 3 O'clock prayer on the card:
1319 You expired, Jesus, but the source of life gushed forth for souls, and the ocean of mercy opened up for the whole world. O Fount of Life, unfathomable Divine Mercy, envelop the whole world and empty yourself out upon us.
84 O Blood and Water, which gushed forth from the Heart of Jesus as a fount of mercy for us. I trust in You!
The time was about 3.28pm when he started to pray. a few moments later that plane landed on the Hudson river and all (circa 155 souls) survived. The Business man was given a second chance.
What did Jesus say about the 3 O'clock prayer:
"I remind you, My daughter, that ,<as often as you hear the clock strike the third hour, immerse yourself completely in My mercy, adoring and glorifying it>; invoke its omnipotence for the whole world, and particularly for poor sinners; for at that moment mercy was opened wide for every soul. In this hour, you can obtain everything for yourself and for others for the asking; <it was the hour of grace for the whole world - mercy triumphed over justice>.
I recall this story I read nearly 1 year to this day as I am faced with the shocking pictures of misery from Haiti which has just lost over 120,000 souls in a terrible Earthquake.
Many people who I don't believe care much for God are all of a sudden asking why does God let disasters happen? All of sudden they point the figure at God!
They should read the old testament which is full of disasters sent by God because Mankind has fallen away from his path and were at war with his Holy Commandments.
Just like now this time, when Mankind is at war with God's commandments, even going further than the peoples living during the days of the old Testament, as now this Generation is playing God by altering the very fabric of Nature. The Pride of this Generation does not appear to know any boundaries.
The disaster in Haiti is just one of many terrible things happening in the world. I think the path we are now walking will lead us to many more disasters which will hit the good and the bad. Mankind is blind and most will not wake up to what is really happening until it is too late.
There is only one way to change to a better path, a pathway which will avoid these terrible disasters and that pathway is where mankind worships God in honest prayer and obeys his Holy Commandments.
The story about the Business man on the Plane which crashed on the Hudson is a story of hope for Catholics in these times when many are trying to come to terms with what is happening. I think the hour glass is running empty and I urge you to take up your Rosary and meditate on the passion in expiation for your sins. Go to confession so you are ready as none of us know the hour or the day we will be called to give account. Go to Mass and worship in humility as we are nothing without God working through us.
I feel like things are spinning out of control. I feel like that some members of my own family have turned their backs on God. I do not judge them! I love them!
If you are reading this article and it has helped you today to think about turning back to God, as it does please offer our God a prayer for me and my Family. I love you Jesus, I love you Mary and I love you St Joseph. I beg you to help us all in these dark days, and especially the poor people of Haiti in their hour of need. I fear the chaos in Haiti is soon to be felt in many more places as this year; 2010, our Almighty God, says, ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!
17th Day of October 2009
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to Mirjana - October 2, 2009 Our Lady appeared to the visionary Mirjana as she does every 2nd of the month, to pray for unbelievers. The following is the message that was given: "Dear Children, as I look at you, my heart seizes with pain. Where are you going, my children? Have you sunk so deeply into sin that you do not know how to stop yourselves? You justify yourselves with sin and live according to it. Kneel down beneath the Cross and look at my Son. He conquered sin and died so that you, my children, may live. Permit me to help you not to die but to live with my Son forever." -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- My SOS to Heaven: Yes dear Mother, you may ask where are we going, but most of us do not know. The truth of Hell has all but been wiped out in the minds of Men. Most Catholics no longer believe in the holy Justice of God. We prefer to believe that God is only Love and how could such a loving God create Hell. And then many believe, this is it, only fools believe in any existence after death. We our blinded by our Greed and selfishness; this generation is only concerned about amusing itself. This is a lost generation, we have been robbed of our great Catholic heritage and no longer understand the great graces we need from the sacrement of confession. This generation is the master of its own deceit. See no evil, hear no evil. Confess no evil! My Dear Mother, my most Beautiful Queen; River of the Trinity; I can never repay you for what you have done for us. I can never take away the pain you suffered as the price necessary for our redemption. I beg on behalf of all mankind you send your holy legions, you send your army of angels, You send us now, Michael, Gabriel, Raphael and Uriel. Send us our Great Saints, Send us Saint John who stood with you at the foot of the Cross, Send us Saint John Bosco so he can save our children once more, Send us the Little Flower, Saint Theresa of the Child Jesus, Send us Saint Philomena, Send Saint Lucy, Send Saint Agnes. We need Heaven to open and flood this forsaken world with the greatest Men and Women who have walked this planet. Send us Saint Gertrude, Saint Rita, Saint Jude, We need them now. Send us our Great Popes, Send St Bernadette, Saint Patrick so he may rid this cesspit called earth of its demon snakes. Send Saint Martha so she may do battle with the great serpent who has ravished our homes. Send St Clare and St John, St Francis to restore the faith. Send our Holy Cure D'Ars, Saint Jean-Marie-Baptiste Vianney so he can give good council to our Priests. Send Saint Monica so she can help all the Mothers of this time who see their children wandering in darkness. Send Saint Augustine, Saint us our Doctors, Saint Peter Damien who can help the most cursed of men who have been robbed of all purity and the sins of these men cry out to Heaven for vengence like Sodom did. Send Saint Theresa of Avila. Send Saint Catherine. Send Saint Mary Magdalene, Send the Apostles. Most of all send St Joseph, the Just man of God as the men walking this planet now have deserted fatherhood and need a true Father figure to help them get it back. This generation is lost and we need saving. This is my prayer, my SOS to Heaven. Yes Mother, this clueless generation does not know where it is going, but I know what we are now doing will bring the wrath of God and the good with the bad will suffer together. We are blind, we do not comprehend the Justice of God, and yet the Justice of God is coming like a thief in the night, and the handmaids are fast a sleep with no oil. This generation has lost its integrity as it worships what is false but holds up that falsehood as the Truth. We have wandered away from the Truth, preferring myths, the love of the many has grown cold, and our own souls now torment us as HOPE has abounded us. As the living temple of God, I hope in your power, your sacred Motherhood. A Motherhood which once protected Jesus at night, as you watched over your child sleeping, protecting the Holy Baby, I beg that you remind God of what you did and that your prayers will diminish the hand of God's Holy Justice from wiping mankind off the face of this earth. Many of us, your lost children have decended into the bowels of Hell, we have corrupted our souls and many are worse than animals. We need your motherly love. I can only hope that my SOS is now with you and with your beloved son, my sweet Jesus, my King, My Jesus, Child King of Prague, and you will flood this world with every grace possible to bring us back from the brink if self destruction and an eternity without God... we used to call it Hell but that concept is forgotten. Save us, Save
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26th Day of September 2009
When on holiday in Ireland in August my dear sister, Claire gave me a book, volume 1 "The Poem of the Man-God" by Maria Valtorta. The book has Church approval. I have read at least 1/3 of the book and it is has really struck me. I have read the bible but the revelation given in person by Jesus to Maria Valtorta is amazing. What has really struck me is just how much Jesus was rejected. This man is making the blind see again, and bringing the dead back to life and men still rejected him. I think Jesus will always be rejected by man until he comes in his Glory with his army of Angels on the day of Judgment. On that day when we run for the hills and ask them to fall on us it will be too late. What really strikes me in the book is how innocent Jesus is. Jesus loved the children because they were innocent and affectionate like he was. His reflection as the Son of God was much brighter in the children than in men. The book reveals that Jesus loved John because he was very innocent and affectionate. One day after Jesus was thrown out of a town in Judea after having stones thrown at him along with all other kinds of abuse, John starts to cry. John is sobbing his heart out because he cannot accept man's rejection of Jesus. John loved Jesus so much it made me cry and feel a bit ashamed because that love died in me when I became a Man (full of Pride). The other thing that strikes you in the book is the character Judas. Judas loved Jesus but he does not want to give up the world. Judas comes across as wanting to live in the World (enjoy its comforts) as well as serve Jesus. The saying "you cannot have two masters" springs to mind; mammon and God. Judas advises Jesus that sometimes you have to lie to get on or stretch the truth. Judas understands how the world works and manipulates the world to get what he wants. Does that ring any bells with you? Many of us manipulate to get what we want and then we complain about how bad the world has become. The other think that struck me is that Judas tells a little child not to call Jesus by his name, say "Master." Jesus rebukes Judas and says that he does not mind children calling out his name because it is with love. Jesus tells Judas than in all the centuries to come many people will call out the name "Jesus" because they want something or because they want to blaspheme his holy name. How often do we Catholics call out "Jesus" because we want something and I hope you never do it for the other reason. I am a Sinner but I never swear using the holy Name in vein. In the book Mary tells Jesus that John is her 2nd son because he loves Jesus and her so much. Dear St John pray for this wicked generation now living on God's wonderful earth. Dear great Saint who had the courage to stand at your God's side when he was dying on the cross and support his mother, pray for us. This world is like poison, full of wickedness and corruption. The love of the many has grown so cold in this time of technology and war. Man strives with ambition and hate to become number one, top dog and denies he was made in the image of a higher being called God. When I watch Television I am shocked at the level of morals of our journalists and politicians who are hell bent on convincing the rest of us that, war (killing innocent people in far of lands) abortion, suicide, drugs, embryo fertilization, free sex, same sex, etc are all good things or necessary evil. They are clueless but the masses are even more clueless for following them. The truth is that Man and Woman are blinded by Pride. We live in very dark times and I believe that God is coming back to all of us with signs of his glory asking us to turn back from the abyss of Hell and eternal damnation. Jesus died on the Cross because it was only by becoming one of us that he could undo the damage (sin) and restore our (Man's) covenant with God. The blood of Jesus restored Man's right to enter Heaven and live in eternal peace with his creator. Whilst I am a Sinner, full of pride and ambition and many other faults, and see Judas nature / personality in me, I love Jesus because he has loved me even with all these faults - and that is true love. I hate the world because it is false and denies the truth which is Jesus. Dear Jesus please bless your Holy Church on Earth, our dear Pope and protect the faithful in these dark days. I love you Jesus, I love you Mary and I love you St John. I truly believe that in these last days there is only one thing that can save us and that is Jesus Christ, the Most High Son of Almighty God.
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24th Day of August 2009 It has been quite some time since my last update. I have just been on holiday to the west coast of Ireland. I went to Knock and many other holy places in Co Mayo and Co Galway which has been a good time of reflection on my life. Obviously my priorities have been wrong. I am not happy, yet I have so much to be happy about. I have a good wife and 2 healthy children. I have great parents who love me very much. I have a job which pays good money and I live in my own home in a nice part of England. My time in rural Ireland helped me to consider what is it that is making me unhappy. I have come to the conclusion that I am unhappy because I love God but live in world that does not love God. This is my SOS to Heaven. Jesus I know you died for us by means of the most awful death any living soul on this earth has ever endured. Mary, I know I can never repay you for what you suffered in order to secure Man's redemption. Does anyone think about what God has done for us? His Son on the cross, the Son of Man made a mockery, The Son of Man made into the Man of all suffering and affliction. The Innocent Lamb slaughtered for the sins of the many. The love of the Many has grown cold. We fight wars in far of places with scant regard for the horrific consequences. We terrorize the womb with abortion on mass. We create new human life forms from a science lab. We spend trillions on banks who have foreclosed on the poor after enticing them into loans they could not afford. We encourage life styles that are not how nature intended. Human trafficking is out of control. Our youth have lost hope and have turned to drugs. The Love of the Many has grown Cold, no time to listen, no time to help, no time to say thank you. No respect or veneration for the Eucharist in Holy Places. Most people now follow myths and magic before they follow God's Holy Law. Our Society is sick, drowning in is own wickedness. And the saddest conclusion of all is that most of our political representatives appear to be in league with the Devil as they cast new laws which make being a Roman Catholic a crime. My time in Ireland thinking about the state of the world made me unhappy because I fear what the world will do to my Children. My SOS to Heaven, forgive us O God of Hosts. Help us to forgive ourselves and forgive our neighbors. Deer sweet Jesus, please rescue your children from the darkness of this world. You are the only cure for a world so ill. I love Jesus and Mary and give thanks for my life. 15th Day of March 2009 I have had a very busy few weeks since my last update. My boss has been on holiday which means I have his work and my work so have had to work very late. There has been a wedding and my wife has helped with that so very busy period for my family. For some reason I have been worrying more than usual. Maybe worrying is not the right word? Fearful could be more appropriate? Its a mixture of fear and worrying and this state of mind has not been positive. My situation at work has not been easy as I have been put under alot of pressure. The saying "what does not kill you will make you stronger" sums up my current situation at work. I think watching the news every day has not helped, as millions of people around the world loose their jobs as the world faces the worst downturn since 1930's. In some ways this downturn has been a good thing as it has brought many of us back to Earth. Too many have been maxing out on credit cards, home loans which has fueled an unreal economic boom. People have been buying things with borrowed money. This is a form of stealing growth from the future. We are now paying a heavy price for stealing so much growth as we face an Armageddon economic crisis. Even countries like China are impacted as the west can no longer afford all those cheap goods from China. Many Governments are now borrowing trillions to stimulate the world economy. Isn't it funny that they think the solution to this problem is the very thing that got us into this mess? I think God's hand is present in this economic situation, and after some time many people will lead more simple lives (not worrying about having the latest accessories / gadgets etc) and that simplicity will lead them closer to God. Anyway back to my worrying and fearful state of mind. At mass today I looked at the cross above the alter and I felt God talking to me. "John why are you worrying and living in fear, look at me on this cross, look at the most important event which has ever taken place in the history of mankind. My death on this cross secured your freedom from Sin and all of its tyranny. John why are you fearful of what might happen to you at work? What is the worst they can do to you? Make you redundant? Is that the worst thing that can happen to you?" At this point (in my mind) I replied to God by saying the worst thing that could ever happen to me is that I end up in Hell, living an eternity of misery without him. A warm feeling came over me as I felt a wave of God's security and confidence flood into my being. God is all powerful and I have nothing to worry about or fear if I put all my trust in him. Jesus once said not to worry "leave tomorrow's worries for tomorrow." This is good advice as we have so much to thank God for. I will try and live each day thanking God for giving me brilliant parents, a wonderful wife and a lovely family. The Blessed Mother Of God, Mary and St Joseph are also reasons I should be thankful to God. Those two (the greatest saints to have ever walked on this planet) have done many things for me and I will never be able to repay them for what they have done for me. I have so much to thank God for in just those things. I will try and relax and leave the worrying to God. At the bottom of the picture of the "Divine Mercy" painting are the words "Jesus, I trust in you." This day I renew my Trust in Jesus and ask him to cover me in his precious blood, washing away my sins and securing me in his love and giving me the confidence to always trust in him and not to be fearful or worry. How can I worry when I have Jesus who is the "Joy of the mind." l love you Jesus and I thank you for my life.
1st March 2009 My sister phoned me a few weeks ago and told me about a great book she is reading at the moment. The book has been inspired by an Italian Mystic called 'Maria Valtorta.' Maria Valtorta appears to be a very special person in that she received grate insights about the life of our Lord and the Blessed Virgin Mary (a bit like Blessed Catherine Emmerich). I found a website at www.valtorta.org and have to say that this is amazing reading. There is a fascinating insight from Jesus about two memories opposed two each other in every man. I think any normal man reading this will understand it very well. This insight reminds be of revelation given by Almighty God to the Irish Seer, Christine Gallagher called infused knowledge (well worth reading). Also read about when Mary first met Joseph and found it very spiritual and uplifting. Strongly recommend you take a look at this site (I intend to buy the book). If you have time please read about why we should pray to St Joseph (very powerful reading). I love you Jesus and I thank you for my life. John. 24th Day of February 2009 Hello, my name is John, I live in England and I constructed this website about 5 years ago now (we are approaching 25000 hits). I hope the prayers in this website are helpful to all of you on your journey of Life. Everyone appears to be blogging now so I thought I would give it ago although not sure about it (please forgive my poor English). In keeping with the nature of this website I will try and keep to spiritual matters. A bit of background on me so you know where I am coming from. I am married to a very good woman (she is perfect for me, a beautiful person and a real blessing from God) with 2 young sons. My oldest boy is called Joseph and is 4 years old. My other son James is 2. They are great fun and a real joy and are teaching me many lessons about God. My sons are typical young boys, loads of energy and very spirited. They can be very disobedient at the moment which is the thing that is teaching me about God. As a Father I must forgive my Children. It makes me recall my youth and how disobedient I was. God has forgiven me many times (too many to recall). I was thinking the other day about how hard it can me sometimes. The battle to make a living and provide in this recession, the battle to keep the faith and the battle to not sin and offend almighty God. A thought popped into my mind about all the Angels both demon and angelic. I mean before the war in Heaven all the Angels were in Heaven so must have been quite close to God. We are told that Angels are very powerful and very intelligent. As they are more aware of God (I say this because they are or were in Heaven) they must have had some understanding about God. But God tested them and we are told that around 1/3 turned against God and were cast into Hell. My thought processes on this subject went something like this. I am a mere mortal Man who has and still finds it very hard to be obedient to God but I have never seen God. If some of the Angels who were more aware of God could not follow him how much harder must it be for us Humans. Then we have the whole Satan and his army now dedicated to our destruction because they don't want us to gain Heaven and the ultimate Joy which goes with making it to Heaven. I mean it is hard enough to follow God with our own human nature without Satan and his army constantly trying to trip us up. After having these thoughts I then thought that God knows all this because of the human nature of Jesus. Somehow these thoughts helped me understand that it is ok to be weak. If the Angels can fall from grace with all there powers how much harder is it for us and God knows how weak we are. I guess that is why we Catholics are so lucky to have the sacrament of Reconciliation. This brings our weakness before God and is very good for us to go often. I have to say that since starting the "Secret of Happiness" devotion at the start of this year I have found it a great help in resisting strong temptations. I think that is enough blogging for now. I love you Jesus and I thank you for my Life. John.
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